(At lunch today with a work colleague)

Me: I'm pretty down about Mother's Day this year.
Her: Yeah, the first year is pretty tough.

(pause)

Her: Do you want to talk about it?
Me: We just did.
Her: (blink blink)
Me: No, seriously, that was a like a full therapy session right there. Thanks.

Everyone who wants to tell me "I told you so," please form a line to the right.

Poetry, set free
although beautiful, still mourns
for the harmonic unity
it once knew
only within the mind of its creator

Like songs when played mourn their colours and patterns
And movies when produced by one voice mourn their chorus of storytellers.

We are shards holographic
containing the memory of the blueprint of All,
separated tragically from our seamless connection.

Yeah, uh, so from the time I first heard this song up until 6 minutes ago I thought this song was called Reap the wild violin. I are brilliant. *sigh*

The phoenix knows the rebirthing glory of blasting a new playlist while reconfiguring her workstation. Bonus: Networked laser printer is also a scanner and fax.

Ahhh, 2011. A year of extremes, in which all things happened at once.

It has really been _____(adjective)_____ sharing my space with someone again, although I have thought _____(adverb)_____ about Sylvia's advice that two people cannot have a successful relationship if one moves into the other's space. Rather, they must each give up their current spaces and move into a new, third space for it to work. In hindsight, I think her advice is _____(adjective)_____. It's been really _____(adjective)_____ meeting with my boyfriend's family, including those that stay over in my house on occasion. That's been extremely _____(adjective)_____, and I look forward to _____(verb ending in "ing")____ them more in the future.

My personality has been subdued of late, something I have chalked up to being on a corporate career path. Or to being a mom. Or to getting older. Or to continuing my self imposed penance for past transgressions. Or to ______(life changing event)_______. When people remember me as the party girl I once was, I feel like they are referring to a stranger, and I realize they are strangers to me as well. Therefore, with relatively few exceptions, I do not maintain contact with people from my past. This is harder to accomplish in Albuquerque than it was in New York City. Thoughts of my next city continue to dance around, but my career keeps me rooted here for a few years more, at the very least.

Jan 14th marks four years since I quit smoking. Still, I am wheezing more,and my sinuses are always clogged. Something I have chalked up to the weather. Or to my allergies. Or to my office having poor to no circulation. Or to the fact that work and home are located relatively proximal to the freeway. Or to ________(circumstance that lends itself to rationalization)______. I really don't want to think about the possibility that it might be something more serious, like _____(disease or similarly named astrological sign)_____.

This was the year my adopti mom died, and the holidays were really rough as a result. I have found myself breaking down in tears, well, even as I type this for example. Excuse me a moment, won't you?

I am really just so thankful I spent the better part of the last decade rebuilding my relationship with her and my Dad, and that there were really no unresolved issues between us when she passed. I am growing closer to my Dad, also, in that when he calls there is no one to whom he can pass off the phone *grin*. He and I have more in common than Mom and I did anyway, which I really find _______(adjective)_____ sometimes.

2012 is the year of my big promotion. _____(exclamation)_____! Over the last decade I have moved my way up through the ranks of petty and immature office worker, through the _____(adjective)_____ isolation of middle management, and straight into the petty and immature machinations of management proper. I think I'm going to reward myself with a _____(verb)_____ to the _____(body part)_____. More about that later, when I'm _____(past tense verb)_____.

Resolutions for the new year? I have none. Intentions? Try to continue to avoid early onset _____(disease)_____ by following the advice of my nutritionist. Except tonight, of course, since I just ordered a _____(adjective)_____ pizza from _____(higher end pizza chain)_____, covered in _____(pizza topping)_____. Mmmmm! Also, to play more SWTOR with pheryx, as gaming is probably one of the few _____(adjective)_____stress outlets I have.

Kthxbye, 2011. It's been _____(any word at all, as long as it's "existential")_______.

It's about the time for the end of year wrap up post, eh? This little tradition always keeps me coming back to you, LJ. Smoochie Boochies!

While the topic of 2011 recap simmers for a future post, I suspect 2012 will be kinda like this: